there’s no pretense.

Original post from Anne Jackson.

Always do the right thing.

It seems obvious, but sometimes it is HARD. Really, really hard.

So hard you can’t eat and you just want to throw up.

So hard it may take you a while to get there.

So hard your mind could be filled with what-if and consumed by fear.

so hard your life as you know might never be the same.

The old adage is true – the longer the agony, the deeper the pain.

Don’t wait. Do the right thing. Do it as soon as you can.

And surround yourself with loving, caring people who will hold you up when you start to double over, who will encourage you, pray with you, pray for you, pray that people will bring you cookies to cheer you up, people who don’t mind when you cry, people who are brave enough to tell you to kick the negative thoughts far away, people who will travel thousands of miles to make things right, people who don’t laugh when all you order is mashed potatoes because you can’t think straight…

People who care. Simply care.

[To those people, today, I say - Thank You].

Sometimes, it really is hard to do the right thing. But.. I’m trying. (:

I donated blood today, in church. What a weird place for a blood donation drive right? But the thing is, well, it was organized by my church so I just went. Can you imagine if the entire church were to donate? 23000 packs of blood straight. Quite impossible though. (:

Everything went well. If you were thinking, no I did not faint, though I did feel a bit faint at one point, but I was jumping soon after when the service started.

Part of the whole donation procedure was a questionnaire which all donors had to fill up. Though it was not my first time donating blood, I was quite amused by the question, “Are you donating blood to find out if you have AIDS?” I mean..what a weird way to check if you have contracted HIV right?

So there’s a tiny hole in my arm right now where the huge needle was injected. I remember the first time I donated blood, I laughed when the nurse injected the needle into my vein. I don’t know why. It’s not painful because the anesthetic had numbed my arm, but I could still feel the needle going in, deeper, deeper, so I started laughing. I’m quite a sadist sometimes. Today, I didn’t laugh. Praise God. (:

Donate Blood. Save Lives! You never know when you’re going to know that you have AIDS. (:

Just bought the latest Lifehouse album “Who We Are” this Tuesday and I’ve been listening to it since. I have to say it’s good! I like it. People reading this should go buy it man. I highly recommend it. You won’t regret it. Trust me, at least for once, I promise. Lifehouse is good! (:

I turned 18 on 14/9/2007. So as of now, I’m 18 years and 3 days young. Well, now that my eighteenth year on earth has passed, the next birthday I’m looking forward to is my 21st birthday. Can’t wait to be an adult. Happy belated birthday to me then. (:

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My prelims ended today. The last paper was Biology Paper 1. Heck. I’m done with prelims. Well I went to watch Premonition with my classmates after the paper. I was a bit hesitant at the beginning. Got a nagging headache when I woke up today, but I went anyway.  We watched the 11am show at The Cathay. After the movie, the headache got worst.

Premonition was messy, confusing and weird. I didn’t really understand the movie until the end where things became a little clearer. Still, I can’t say I understood it fully. I’m still a bit confused. Maybe it’s just me, but it was rather draggy as well. Urghh. The main thing is my headache got worst through the movie. Killed too much already damaged brain cells trying to figure out what’s going on. Read the critics and you know what I’m talking about.

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I think I’m going to go rest for a while. Took 2 Panadols and I hope the headache goes away fast. It sucks. I’ve no school tomorrow, so I’m going to sleep like nobody’s business tonight.

Prelims are over. Well, not exactly. I still have 2 more papers. Chemistry and Biology. Both Paper 1.

The problem is, I’m kind of taking it as if my prelims are officially over already. I screwed up my Maths Paper 2 totally yesterday. I mean, seriously-no-kidding kind of screwed up. I’m not prepared at all when I went to take it. Didn’t know anything about Statistics beyond InvNorm, which by the way, is what I only started studying the morning before my afternoon paper. I better go catch up fast. The next Maths exam I’ll be taking will be the A levels already.

Anyway, I didn’t have any paper today. So I didn’t have to attend school. Good, because I spent the whole afternoon in front of my computer watching anime. Didn’t touch any books. Oh well, I think I’m gonna go revise something later at night. It’s an afternoon paper tomorrow as well.

Oh yes. I collected my new spectacles already. They’re red half-framed Ted Baker spectacles. Not bad. I like them (obviously). I’m still only wearing them when I need to though, like when I’m studying or on the computer.

Ok. It’s 13 September. (:

Let me tell you a secret. I went out to watch Secret yesterday. Ok. That’s lame.

Alright. Actually, I went to the national library yesterday to study with some of my classmates. 4 of us in total. We were supposed to be there at 10am, but of course, some were late. I admit. I was.

Watching Secret was kind of an impromptu thing. We only decided on it halfway through studying. Ok so we left the library at around evening for Cathay Cineleisure to watch the 7.30pm show. The tickets were sold out when we reached. Crap. So we ended up walking to Dhoby Ghaut to watch the 9.15pm show at The Cathay.

The movie was pretty good. Not bad, just that the ending was kind of crap. The plot was totally unexpected, and that was good. I wasn’t expecting it to turn out that way. Oh well. Overall, it was worth watching. (:

Nothing else. Going off to collect my new spectacles now. I finally made a new pair. (:

Weather Forecast was right. It rained cows and goats today, at the right place, at the right time. Another day of me feeling extremely lazy and tired, so I did nothing but eat, read the papers, watch the TV, and sleep, that is, up till now.

Well to cut the long story short, after I had enough of the TV, I was supposed to go and study. BUT (this is always the key word isn’t it?), my bed was too tempting. Yeah you know what happens next, I lied down on it and the next thing I knew I fell asleep.

I didn’t regret it much though. Slept for around 3 plus hours. The weather was so good for a nap. It started raining quite heavily temperature was so cool. I sure hope the weather is like this everyday. (:

I’ll have to do some work later on. Exams are still not over. No mood, and it sucks.

When I’m Dead Pissed,

I’m Easily Irritated. Total Attitude Problem, maximum PMS symptoms. Stay away. Usually, I’ll leave before I blow, which, thank God, was what I did.

When I’m Dead Pissed,

Even strangers seem to become my enemies. They should all just disappear and die or something. Just get out of my sight.

When I’m Dead Pissed,

Apparently, Sudoku becomes so much easier. Add in background music and I seem to breeze through them. Actually I only managed to complete one ‘5 star level’ puzzle. Still, it didn’t seem much to me while doing it yesterday night.

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Yes a bloody innocent moron made me Dead Pissed. Just shut up and play your damn PSP. The world will be a better place.

It’s one thing if you don’t believe what I believe. It’s another if you don’t keep your mouth shut keep talking about it in front of me.

It’s one thing if you don’t want to come back to my church next week. It’s another if you keep saying it the last time we’re going to see you and seem to want everyone to beg you to stay.

I mean. Basic courtesy and respect right? How stupid can one get? I know that the army is a place that you can get easily influenced by the wrong company, but I didn’t know the army can make you stupid. You’re supposed to be more militarily intelligent now. It seems like people are leaning how to create a fight more easily. Stupid.

Well that was yesterday. I’m not that Dead Pissed anymore, though I still feel sour thinking about it. Love your enemies as yourself. Looks like I still got a long way to go. Well, patience has its limits.