Me and My Friends
After reading this, it got me thinking, and I started to ponder about what has been running through my mind for the past days, maybe weeks.
When I was much much younger, many tests, online or offline (pun unintended), revealed that I was an extrovert. Now, most of them, if not all, show that I’m an introvert instead. So you see people do change, but that’s not the point I want to put across today. I used to think that being an introvert is something bad, but now I know it’s just your personality. No right or wrong, good or bad. Anyway according to those test, I’m just a bit more of an I than an E (like 60% I as to 40% E). Then again, this is still not my point.
I don’t talk a lot. I don’t like to talk a lot to people that I’m not close to. Funny how this sounds, because you need to talk and relate in order to build relationships. Ok maybe I should rephrase my sentence. I don’t open up easily to people. I guard my heart, my thoughts. So yes to most people I may seem cold, hard to talk to, with nothing interesting to say. Well, too bad for them. (: Because I think a lot, I observe people a lot, how they act, how they behave, the way they speak, their values, integrity and authenticity. You can get to know a lot about a person just by observing him or her. Then, perhaps the best way to say this is that, after observation, I subconsciously judge them.
I decide if they’re worthy friends to have, I decide if this friendship is one that is worth having. To put it more crudely, I decide if they are good enough for me. (: Yes I know. Nobody is perfect, but I’m not either. So pardon me for thinking this way. (: In other words, I choose who I open up to, who I want to talk to, who I am willing to talk to.
Being sociable drains me. To force myself to talk to new people, to engage in a conversation and build a relationship, it tires me. That is it why I treasure the close friends I have a lot, because I’m comfortable around them, comfortable even in silence. Please don’t be mistaken. I love meeting new people, getting to know more friends. I enjoy doing that, really.
So I can safely say I rank my friends.
1) Hi-bye friends.
These are the ones whom I simply only know their names or that I simply just can’t relate to and click with them. So it’ll be like, “Hi how are you? I’m fine. See you around. Bye!”
2) General friends
These are friends that I can talk to. To put it in context of what I have said, friends that are good enough for me.
3) Close friends
Need I say more?
So yes. That’s all for now. Watch out for my next post, because after all this, I’m still not at my point. (:
