there’s no pretense.

If there is one thing I look forward to after I ORD from the army, it’ll be going abroad to study. UK or Australia, whatever. Anywhere out of Singapore will be good. I just want to be somewhere alone. I feel so sick of Singapore already.

I want to travel, go to places I’ve never been before. See the world! Vancouver, Taiwan, Italy, London, France, Holland, Germany. I want to go to all those places the game Geo Challenge on Facebook displayed. Maybe that’s why I like the game so much.

Perhaps I’m running away. Away from the things I don’t want to do anymore, away from people, away from this same old lifestyle. I want something different, something I’ve never experienced before, something refreshing. A new life, a new beginning, start over, no worries, no commitments, no ties, no bindings. My own life.

But it’s not just that. Networking, a foreign degree, experience, knowledge, all this I will gain. I want to be successful in what I do. It’s for my future, it’s what I want now.

People tell me they can’t bear to leave behind all the relationships and ties and whatever they have in Singapore, but I’m not that kind of guy. I not the type of person who will find it hard to leave things like that behind. I can let things go, easily. Family, friends, relationships, church, lifestyle. No problem. I’m the kind of person who is totally comfortable alone and doing things alone. In fact I like being alone. I don’t think there’s any problem sitting alone in the canteen and eating my lunch when everyone else around me are in groups. I won’t feel like a loner. I’m confident, sure of myself.

To figure out what I want to do in life, what kind of life I want to lead, to understand myself better. No outside influences, no pressure. Just what I want and what I want to do. Me, myself and I.

Oh my gosh prac two was so fun.

I started the lesson being asked to change gears again and again, but at least that didn’t last for long. My new instructor (the previous one was the boss and he took me for the first lesson to decide which instructor would be the best for me) got me to drive round and round the car park (that was fun enough because I kept stepping on the accelerator even though he kept telling me not to but it got boring as well after a while) but I was totally stunned when he said, ‘Signal left we are going to turn out into the main road.’

Driving on the main road was totally exhilarating. That’s an understatement, though maybe it’s just because it’s my first time. I manage to book another lesson for the coming Friday, which is Labour Day, and on the coming Sunday as well.

I CAN’T WAIT.

I got my PDL on Saturday after guard duty, and had my first car driving practical lesson last Sunday. I have to say it was.. quite boring. Not to say that it wasn’t fun or exciting. I can’t wait for the next lesson this coming Sunday, but I felt that I spent one hour doing really repetitive and simple moves.

“Ok practice changing gears. 1, 2, 3, 4, reverse. 4, 3, 2, 1, neutral.”
“Now practice stepping on clutch/accelerator/brake, half-clutch, release, repeat.”
“Alright now practice changing gears again.”

*dang!* How many times you want me to do that man? I think I spent 10-15 minutes alone just changing the gears up, and then down again. I’m not an idiot. Don’t waste my time and money.

I think I have to speed things up myself. Step on the accelerator, burn some rubber and make my money and time spent more worthwhile. I hope I don’t wreck the car. (:

One year ago today I enlisted in this organization called the Singapore Armed Forces. Now, one year has passed. On hindsight, the past one year has been full of ups and downs. It’s had been fast paced, intensive, and as much as I hate to admit, some what fun. The friendships that had been forged in this past year are ones that I am deeply grateful for, and I’ll never forget. Thinking back, time really flew. Ten more months is what awaits me before the next chapter of my life begins.

CRAP SO LONG TEN MORE MONTHS SO LONG SO LONG SO LONG.

Time. Please don’t fly. SOAR.

Today is a day worth celebrating, and remembering, simply because I passed my Basic Theory Test for driving. Go ahead laugh. It’s basic theory anyway. Big deal. BUT, that’s one step closer to my driving license. I booked my Final Theory Test on 7 May, one month from now. I am so going to pass it as well. I want to start my practical lessons asap too, but I just have to figure out a way to get my Provisional Driving License which can only be bought on weekdays, from 8.30am to 5pm, before I can start on the lessons. Now that’s a problem.

Early release? Not a chance in this week.
Half day off? Sucks because I don’t want to waste my offs on this.

I just have to think of a way. Oh and I’ve decided Comfort would be a better choice to take my bike license at. Nearer, more convenient. (: