think. visualise. believe. confess.

rawr! it was last thursday. i found out something rather shocking. well the day started with P talking about the newspaper report on project work results that was on the straits times that day. the information was actually gathered from people’s blogs and phone-ins. so she talked to us about blogs, that we shouldn’t write all the stuff we do and so on. yeah right. like i give her a damn. i write what i want. so long as it’s not something that will get me in trouble or morally wrong, it’s perfectly fine in my eyes. i’m perfectly fine with SPH coming here and ripping off what i write.

well the main thing is not that. during GP that day, mrs muru started the lesson by talking about what P said as well. i don’t really care but the thing was that she told us she was looking through our blogs and she found out that we had wanted to change our GP tutor before. what surprised me is that she actually found out blogs. ok i admit if one actually puts in the effort it’s really easy because everybody’s blog in the school is probably all linked up one way or another. but still, it was quite a freaky thought. and what makes it even worse is that she told me she got to my blog first. how the hell did she get my link in the first place? and she said the school actually knows all our blogs. CRAP. that’s a scary scenario.

ok i figured my url is kinda easy to find on google considering it basically just my name. oh well. i contemplated changing my url but decided against it since it’s too much trouble and it’ll be too easy to find it yet again. there’s no point.

so yeah. basically the conclusion is that teachers and the PRINCIPAL included actually are able to find and read our blogs so easily. well on one hand it’s bad but to be honest it kinda cool to know that no matter what happens in school, we can always just come back home to rant it all out on our blogs and let them (SPH/mediacorp) know. don’t mess with bloggers. (:

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i had CIP today with the house council. it was at some moral home for the aged at tanah merah area. we met 9.15am at tanah merah. thank God i asked weili give me a morning call. i was afraid i’ll ignore the alarm in the morning, which i really did by switching off the alarm and going back to sleep so i asked her the previous night. indeed, i thank God i did, or i would have overslept like nobody’s business.

travelling to tanah merah brought back memories of secondary school life. taking bus 228 or 66 then switching to 14 or 222. argh. i miss secondary school. PA, all the soccer, makan-ing at 85 market, climbing of stairs (114 step climb just to go up to the school and another 5 story climb to get to class. so stop complaining we need to climb a lot in sajc.), the long walks to our bus stop with ryan and the many others, macs and long john and so much more. i miss them.

anyway the whole CIP was quite fruitful. i helped clean the home and interacted with the old folks a bit before helping to serve lunch. basically that’s it. did more interaction and and then we left. it was quite an experience seeing them as most were in their 80′s or 90′s and some over a 100 years old. well it was quite worth it.

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service was good today. it was rev dr robb thompson who preached and he really said some things that really got me thinking. after the service, we celebrated merrill’s birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MERRILL! YOU’RE 18! GOD BLESS! (:

pretty much the usual after that. gave bible study, slacked around, ate, sent ginny home and nothing much else. she stubbornly refuse to listen to me when i told her not to buy ice-cream since she’s sick. irritating.

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an extended weekend or not. that’s the question. (:

last friday was sports day, and i’m proud to say it was very much a success. (:

well in the beginning when i first got the news that sports day is going to have only one track event, i admit i thought it is going to be screwed up. but now, i have to say it’s great. kudos to the j1s who executed the event. they did a good job. (:

the main highlight of the day was probably the musical chairs. yes you heard me right. musical chairs for sports day. that was my reaction when i first heard it myself. but the fact is, it was fun! teachers and students participated in it and the last two people left at the end was khalid and ji wen lao shi, which khalid proudly won. it engaged not only the crowd (well that’s for those who were kind enough to at least get their butts off the gallery to stand up and watch. there were dozens of people who didn’t even bother moving. i wonder why they came to school.), but also the teachers including P and VP. (:

well sports day ended well for me, at least because hose won the house cup. yay!

it was won by romanis last year but i guess lady luck was on our side this time round. i have to say romanis cheered better than us because all we did (no thanks to those who didn’t even make a sound. worse than a mouse.) was that we made a lot of noise. but the bottom line is that we won. (:

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well i kinda fell sick on friday night after cell group. it’s kinda weird because i was feeling fine till like halfway through the sermon when i started to feel tired. shortly after leaving grace’s house my nose tap turned on, and i felt horrible. thought i’ll be fine after the night’s rest but when i woke up the next morning with my nose was still blocked. it got better during the day while at church but it came back at night after giving bible study. it got worse after sending ginny home. how weird is that?

woke up with my nose again still blocked on sunday morning. oh well. met up with junni at marine parade library to study. thank God i didn’t feel so bad there. anyway came home for dinner and in the night it got worse again. i was kinda having pre-fever symptoms. yeah that’s what i call it. i was feeling anything but alright. -.-

woke up on monday and i didn’t feel really right, but still decided to go school. i decided to take a green slip to go home after chem lecture though. was just feeling too tired. it wasn’t really a full blown fever but just couldn’t bother. i shouldn’t have gone to school in the first place.

didn’t go school on tuesday, partly because i didn’t want to as well. figured it wasn’t worth it since there’s only one lecture and i’m not completely well yet. still, i went for leader’s meeting at night though. it was really good. it gave me the spark to make sure i have quality quiet time everyday once again, which i have to admit i’ve been struggling for quite some time already. praise God. (:

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live from abbey street. notice the pun made in my title. yeah. the show is really damn cool man. watching all the various bands and artists

perform in the renowned studio. EVERY TUESDAY 11PM ON ARTS CENTRAL. A MUST WATCH. though i keep missing half the show every week because i can’t make it back home in time after leader’s meeting. sad.

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this is the last week of april. which means last week for building fund. after this week i’ll have fulfilled my building fund. yay! praise God. and i can start spending already. yay! praise God even more. i seriously want a new bag.

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it’s pouring now at bedok reservoir road. do hope it keeps going on. it will seriously aid me in getting some good sleep. haven’t been sleeping well since last friday. i guess that’s all for now.

i know i like bananas. but this…

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teenage mutant ninja turtles. what?! -.-

i had service at singapore indoor stadium last week. benny hinn conference. it was TREMENDOUS. i don’t really know how to describe it but yeah it was hell good. you really have to be there to experience it yourself man.

i’m still feeling sore about missing friday and saturday night of the conference. friday was just plain wasted that i missed it because of the stupid meeting. saturday i can’t really help it because it’s my grandmother’s birthday, though i have to say it’s really a waste of time as well because i just sat there and stoned for the whole dinner. so i could only make it for sunday. met up charmaine and ate dinner at macs before taking a cab down to SIS. we reached around 1.30pm. the members were there queuing at 12pm already. haha.

what makes the fact that i missed two out of three services worse was that i was serving choir. it was such a PRIVILEGE to be singing for the conference! we got our choir tags when we reached SIS and went in shortly. the entire choir was sitted behind the stage. it was just damn cool. we practiced for a while till around 3.30pm and we got a break. service started shorly at 4pm.

the feeling of singing in front of the whole audience was just exhilarating man. it was just so good. benny hinn blessed the choir, saying it’s the best choir he ever had. haha. and the best thing is that he said we might get a chance to go to Israel together with him during his trip this november. he will try to make arrangements for us to go. of course we need to pay, but it’ll be so much cheaper compared to church’s one. i really hope it comes to pass man. i can’t imagine going to Israel to sing. and i do pray that it won’t clash with A levels, even though it highly likely because my last paper is on 22 november which is so late. ok. let’s not talk about the sad things.

service lasted for 4.5 hours. it was crazy. i actually sat there for like close to 7.5 hours altogether. when service ended i was like ‘hmm.. how come it seems so short. doesn’t even feel 2 hours yet.’ then i looked at my phone and it showed 2030. -.-

had a short debrief and i went to find the cell group with charmaine. some of them went for dinner but it was kinda a little late so i decided to go home. took the shuttle bus out to kallang mrt. merrill was telling me about this year’s POS and that saturday was damn good. crap. oh well. took 21 home. the entire experience was truly unforgettable.

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like i said last saturday’s dinner, it was held at paramount hotel. i literally didn’t talk for the whole of the dinner except for small greetings and a short chat with a cousin. i don’t even know his name. -.- i’m not very close to my family or relatives much at all. i feel like i’m just kinda out from my whole family relations, partly is because i dun speak cantonese (my father’s side is cantonese), which they keep doing and speaking to me in that and expecting me to understand and reply, and also partly because i don’t really care. there’s a lot of other reasons la, but it’s complicated. i can’t even get it right who’s kelvin, who’s melvin, and who’s alvin, who are my cousins. but never mind. it’s not as if i talk to them. i haven’t since God know how many years ago.

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nothing much happened this week. grace told me something sad on monday regarding ginny, but it’s not really appropriate to mention here. went for it yesterday and then to ymca with grace after it for leader’s meeting. naturally ginny couldn’t come because of what happened. yeah.

cell group resumes this week. yeah. yesterday’s leader’s meeting said that cell group format is going to change slightly. haha. well it’s quite good. i can’t wait for friday. (:

Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Feeling

You are: Tolerant, flexible, and open to new ideas. A stickler for integrity and authenticity. Passionate about causes, beliefs, or politics. Likely to have many “best friends” from many walks of life

What’s Your Personality Cluster?

i’m neither introverted nor extroverted. i don’t take on their extreme sides. but i am definitely lively and open. as in i will open up and talk if i want to. but if i’m to be categorised to one of them, tests normally show that i’m introverted, and i feel that way too. i don’t think you reading will get what i mean. -.- never mind. you can always get know me better. (:

Your EQ is 147

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you’d have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You’ve got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You’re average. It’s easy to predict how you’ll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities – you’ve either out “Dr. Phil-ed” Dr. Phil… or you’re a dirty liar.

What’s Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

yeah i admit i have a high EQ. (:

i got back my project work results today. i got an excellent D. wow. great.

for those slow people (haha sorry weili i just have to mention your name ), i was being damn sarcastic. mabel chia told the whole j2 that 75% of us got As, Bs, and Cs. which means 25% got Ds and below. what the hell is wrong with her man? that’s equivalent to saying nothing at all. i’ll help her correct her words. in reality, 70% got Cs, 5% Bs, and less than 1% As. to be exact, only 6 students got a freaking A grade. of course the figures are what i made up, but you just can’t deny it. personally i only know one person who got a B in sajc. of course there are friends of my friends who got Bs, but that’s not the point. the point is that so many people got Cs and Ds. conclusion: sajc’s project work sucks.

everyone is my class got a D except 3 people who got C. can you believe that? and my friends are telling me everyone in their class got C except a few who got D. WHAT THE HELL. everyone seems to be getting Cs and Ds. if that’s the case just say so. don’t bloody hell cover it up by saying 75% got As, Bs, and Cs. that’s deceiving us and also deceiving the school. and to think it came from the VP. mabel chia. what a bitch. i’m sorry, but that’s just the case. made us happy for nothing. i thought at first that most of us will be getting As and Bs. what the heck. conclusion: sajc’s project work sucks.

i asked ginny about her results. well she got A. i’m happy for her. (: and vj has 40% of the people getting As. she asked if i was feeling alright. i told her no i’m not. seriously i wasn’t feeling alright at all then.

i asked merrill about his results. he got B while all his group mates got C. i’m happy for him too. and he told me arison got C. (: i still don’t know about linkai yet.

i asked baoying about her results. she got A. i’m happy for her too. (: and the lowest grade in mj is C.
conclusion: sajc’s project work suck BIG time.

what makes it sadder is that mr lim said we could be expecting As and Bs before. never mind that. it’s over.

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our class became super emo today. haha. we made a video singing along to the song just so you know and without you. anuaar wrote emo words on his wrists. weixuan acted as if he wanted to jump. partly because the msp students might get kicked out of college, but i highly doubt so though. it’s damn sad to think about it.

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i had house meeting today. according to the message relayed it was supposed to be a briefing. so i thought it won’t be that long. it turned out to be a sort of dry run of sports day for the j1 running for house. crap la. i’m supposed to sing for benny hinn’s conference today. but because of that last minute meeting in which we did nothing because all it involved were the 5 who planned the thing, i couldn’t make it. like what the hell la. why call us there when we aren’t needed? i practiced so long, in the end i have to miss singing.

i ended at 6pm. we were supposed to meet at the singapore indoor stadium at 4.30pm. great ah. i couldn’t even rush there in time because doors close at 6.20pm according to charmaine. no chance of taking a cab because i forgot about the surcharge so i had no money. by that time i can’t reach in time even if i don’t sing. so i went home. and what’s worse is that my phone died of low battery. so i had no way of contacting grace to tell her i can’t make it.

went to charge the phone when i reach home. guess what i found out. grace msg me that ian wants to meet all the leaders and helpers after the sv. i’m NOT at the sv. i keep missing all the leader’s meetings. crap la. it doesn’t feel right. seems like something always clashes with church meetings. i’m getting sick of this man.

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i can’t make it for sv tomorrow because of my grandma’s birthday dinner. not that i even want to go. i’d rather go for benny hinn. but the thing is my face just have to be there at the dinner even though it doesn’t make a difference. i’m not close to my cousins. i dun mingle with my relatives. i don’t speak cantonese even though i’m one, but they all just keep babbling on and on. i’m just going there to waste 3-4 hours of my time stoning and eating. i’m going for the sake of going. i’m going for my parent’s sake so they’ll be happy. how can this be enjoyable?

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this friday the thirteen has just been a damn lousy day.

i didnt go sch td. didnt want to. didnt felt like it. partly also because jerry chua pissed me off ytd. didnt want to see him td. pe is at 430pm td. i’m not gonna wait so long for it when lessons end at 230pm and all i’ll be doing is to sit around cuz i’ve finished napfa. so instead of trying to think of an excuse to skip pe, i might just as well skip sch. simple yet so effective. i didnt really miss anything though. just a bio lect i suppose. that’s ok. i won’t miss anything from maths cuz the freaking LT goes so slow, and that tan hong cheong refuse to let me to go to the CC. screw him. i swear i’ll proof him wrong in bt2.

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ok let’s talk about electricity now. for 18 years of my life, i’ve nv really appreciated you. i took you for granted. i wasted you a fair bit. i nv told you how impt you are to me. i switch you on as and when i like, leave you running as long as i wanted to, and switch you off when you’re no longer needed. i didnt give a damn about you. today, that’s all gonna CHANGE. you see. electricity to my block was cut off td from 9am to 5pm because there was some rewiring work going on. that’s a freaking 8 hours of living like a caveman.

AT 9AM, the fan in my room stopped rotating, i was awake then so i saw it. yeah i knew about the electricity cut so i went back to slp. when i woke up i just slacked around. at that time i’m still relatively cool.

AT 12PM, after coming back home from my lunch downstairs, all sweat broke lose. yeah you heard me. ALL PERSPIRATION BROKE LOSE.

NO COMPUTER, NO TV, NO RADIO, NO FRIDGE, NO AIR-CONDITIONING, NOT EVEN A BLOODY FAN. NO NOTHING! can you imagine how i felt? my house just became a SAUNA! i’ve nv felt so horrible. all i can do was to go do my work. yes i can go macs to study but in the afternoon it’s damn crowded, and i ain’t got any cash to spend on the the license.

so what did i do? i opened the windows (as in really ‘opened’ the windows) and the grills as well. then guess what? the sun directly shun in. -.- fine. nvm. that aside, it’s better to feel a little more ventilated while sweat beads kept dripping down my face. half the time while doing my chem i was so tempted to just go lock myself in the fridge. yes it’s not working as well but at least it’s 20°C cooler than the sauna.

fast forward to 5pm. i looked at my home phone. the caller id lit up. WOW! electricity is back! like a crazed fanatic, i ran to the fridge and opened it, welcoming a rush of cold air at 13°C (taking the temperature to be 33°C at that time). then i went back to my room and switched on the fan, amazed that the blades are actually rotating automatically. i walked to the computer, switched it on, enjoying the melodious sound produced by the speakers as windows starts up. ten-ten-ten-ten (pronounced ‘d’-en), followed by ten-ten-ten-ten-ten-ten as i logged in.

this 8 excruciation hours has sure taught me a lesson. how millions of charged electrons congregating together as a flow can be such a powerful force to be reckoned with. they have the power to turn, to rotate, to blow, to cool, to do practically everything. no wonder scientists all around the world are trying to harness the power of this incredible ally. 20¢ per kW. you sure are worth every cent. all hail the supreme electricity.

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ok. what daryl have done is that he has just demonstrated how dependent he is on electricity. great. (:

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You Are a Mac

You are creative, stylish, and super trendy. You demand the best – even if it costs an arm and a leg.

Are You a Mac or a PC?

cool. though if i’m gonna get a laptop i’m not sure if i’ll get a mac. considering though. but that’s for after army. -.-

feeling crap now. seems like everybody in the world has smth on and is busy and i’m the most free. wth. yes daryl doesnt have anything to do. he’s damn free. too much time to spare. damn it.

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not really a great time to get unhappy but i cant help it. it’s easter td. going for sv later to help out though i dun have friends td.

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not in a mood to write anything else. going to QUEUE soon. nvm.

last thing.

THANK YOU LYNN KOK FOR LENDING ME YOUR MATHS NOTES TO COPY AND FOR ALL THE 8 DAYS YOU’VE LENT ME.

big, bold and highlighted enough? you should be happy.