think. visualise. believe. confess.

Life has taken a huge step back without you around. Come July, oh please come.

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real,
Don’t be afraid
We’ll make it out of this mess.

It’s a love story baby just say yes.

(:

When this post is up your flight will be just taking off for Sydney, Australia.

I’ll miss you.

Speeches won’t be made today, clocks will carry on.
Flowers won’t be left in parks, work will still be done.
People won’t be dressed in black, babies will be born.
No flags will fly, the sun will rise,
But we know that you are gone.

You who love to love and believed we can never give enough.

It wakes me every single night, thinking through the day.
Did you stop at any time, have doubts at any stage.
Were you calm or were you numb, or happy just to get it done.
I’ve lived my life without regret, until today.

You who love to love and believed we can never give enough.

I didn’t get to say goodbye, the day before the day.
Was trying to get to work on time, that’s why I turned away.
And missed the most important thing, you’ve ever tried to say.
I’ve lived my life without regret, until today.

You who love to love and believed we can never give enough.
And you who hoped that underneath we all felt the same.
That was until the day before the day.
The day before the day…

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When this post is up my flight will be just taking off for Thailand. You’re flying off tomorrow, and I can’t even be there to send you off. Instead you sent me off today. The feeling just suck. Life has to go on. Trust me. Everything will be alright. (:

29 more times, 696 more hours, 41760 more minutes. It just seems so insufficient isn’t it dear?

Saw this on the TV during canteen break..

“Love is giving someone the power to hurt you but trusting him/her not to.”

POP on the upcoming Tuesday? Yes I am. But, who cares right? :/

It’s where I grew up. It’s where I first studied. It’s a place I’ll never forget. It’s special. It’s unique. It made me, shaped me and fed me. It’s so much more.

Visited my grandparents today. It’s been a while since I did. Words cannot express my gratitude and love for them.

They brought me up. From the day I was born all the way till primary 4 I stayed with my grandparents. Maternal grandparents. They carried me 18 years ago, fed me, taught me to live and to love, to smile and to laugh. Now, 18 years of age, they’re still here, and I thank God for them, for I won’t be who I am today without them.

I visited today without the intention of staying for dinner, but they asked, and I stayed gladly. Hadn’t had dinner there since Chinese New Year. Simple food. Just me, my grandparents and my aunt when she came back from work. So simple, yet so heart-warming.

Looking at my grandma now, she look so petite, so fragile. She has lost a lot of weight. Probably due to her old age. Her leg aches. Been to so many physicians but to no avail. I guess it’s probably due to old age as well. She’s still strong. She prepared dinner tonight. Washed the rice, steamed the fish, served the plates. My grandpa, strong as ever. Still full of life. It’s sad to think that they’ll go one day. I don’t know how I’ll feel when the day comes.

I love my grandparents. They’ll always be special to me. It’s a feeling so strong and overwhelming that I don’t even feel for my parents. It’s probably why I’m not close to them. I want to get married one day. I want to let my grandparents see me marrying the one I love one day. I believe it’s my greatest gift I can ever give to them. So Lord I pray you will preserve them, bless them, and give them strength. They mean the world to me.

So for those whose grandparents are still around. do give them a visit. Your simple act will make their day.

It would make everything much better if two simple words were added at the end of the wedding vow. (:

“I take you to be my wedded husband/wife,

to have and to hold from this day forward,

for better or for worse, for richer or poorer,

in sickness and in health,

to love and to cherish and to obey,

as long as we both live,

according to God’s holy ordinance;

and thereto I give you my love,

ceteris paribus.”

Note:

For those of you who don’t take economics, ceteris paribus means all other things being equal. In other words, all other factors remaining the same or constant as present.